Nov. 1, 2011 Written coming out of the night of Halloween, Oct. 31.  When the veils are thin, a hole in time, it is said.

Web-like Network of nodes, of pods

When we move into sacred deep circle with intention and presence, circles of co-creation, they begin to build web-like/life connections to others, and even strengthen and nourish others and each other.  An etheric web of connective tissue is built and strengthened.  Like a new being with many nuclei taking form in consciousness, amplifying potential and interweaving signals and electrical connections.  The whole thing becomes alive and continues to seek new pods of connection – waiting, sensing, – seeking new circles of co-creation.

These little networks of pods have started taking form at various places on the planet.  As humans become aware and consciously come together in deep circle, a pod is activated and begins to seek connection and nourishment beyond itself – watching, sensing for others.  As humans we can intentionally create these network nodes at various points on the planet, especially attentive to Earth places, acupuncture points that can magnify the potential of connective tissue seeking others to begin to help humans create them.  This reciprocal relationship between humans and other conscious entities becomes a true co-creation with the planet in creating her new skin, her web of conscious etheric respirating (breathing) and permeable, yet membrane-like protective cover that imbues human consciousness with new wisdom and awareness about living in deep eco-systemic relationship with her and one another.  And her emerging new web of consciousness brings her into yet another level of evolution and connective relationship in her cosmic home and family.

There is a continual birthing in this web-like expansion – bursts in human and Earth consciousness expanding out to create new pods.  The activator is individual and collective human soul awareness and conscious intention to co-create, to seek deep into the unknown, to give over any control, and to be in full participative relationship with the highest future potential.  We are in a reciprocal reaching out, opening, drawing in, waiting, witnessing, actively birthing the new.

My role is to create the space for these deep sacred circles of co-creation, to call others, especially women there.  To hold space, to sense the connections, to notice where other pods are activating or already in form.  How then to weave them into this connective web of membrane tissue?

The School for Collective Leadership can serve this.  Students will come from many places.  A pod is formed in conscious connection with place and yet the humans will return to their planetary home places and begin to activate more circles, more baby pods.  They will need the support, the connective tissue that strengthens the web.  I and others can follow them in some form of active co-creative reciprocal support.  In-person and Skype circles of co-creation will hold the interweaving matrix fabric and sustenance for new pods across vast geography.  These pods that are held across time/space are more expansive or generative pods, carrying not only sustaining capacities but birthing new ones.  Pods birthing pods, a kind of conscious conception.

From my journal on April 23, 2011.  This seems to follow and be directly related to what I wrote on April 22 (posted May 8, 2011)  called “Pods of Awakening”.  It is now Oct. 2011 and  some of this is showing up again (with the assistance of an intuitive). This has caused me to look back and reflect more on this; to notice this moved easily through me several months ago.

Here is what I wrote then – with no changes.

What is the future potential?  How do I sense and experience that?

This became like a shamanic journey meditation state of consciousness.  I was transported with ease, gliding on the energy flowing through my heart center (from back to front and forward).  Like a gentle rocket streaming into and the void.

Then out of the mists a landscape began to appear – green and fresh, clear waters, like the north woods and lakes of northern Minnesota or Maine.  I seemed to come gently to rest at the dock of this pristine lake and a very woodsy-like house structure – large.  It seemed to be home.  Very in tune to the land and natural world this place was home to writers, artists, creative people caring for one another, the food preparation and growing – as if all the basic functions of life are in tune and in support of our joyous and natural creativity.  A harmony of human endeavor and community within the surrounding life wholeness.

Then I seemed to move out and easily up through and over the trees to a high place where great vistas, in every direction – lush green, and lakes (less visible), and abundant life were seen. This seemed a sacred place – initially where humans and others came to sit in circle and access answers to their deepest questions.  Later a structure took form for circle held in protective and natural cover as needed.  Wisdom councils encircle here.

Then I saw there were, at various points in the distance, other little communities.  My sense is they are intentionally small so the Earth presence is constantly and consistently honored and represenced.  They live and work and learn and play as part of the eco-system.  They are integral to the whole.

I saw the School of Collective Leadership at Essex.  I did not stay there as now is not the time, but have the sense it is thriving.  And is also a community of humans and all beings living and learning in wholeness.

Then I became aware of the pods moving gently into the scene – maybe one or two humans who have this ‘beyond-time capacity’ would move into this context of life, or depart.  They are the seeds of wisdom, of the future, implanting and fertilizing our human soil / soul.  And they also exchange energy in a very balanced way, with Earth beings / humans – renewing us and also reclaiming our spent energy, our old and no longer needed emotional and ego stuff.  They can take that in to recycle so that the alchemy of love continues to burn into the human genetic code as the trauma and shadow is ready to go / release. 

I have the sense of being in the human world and a ‘human-like being’ in these pods.  We, in the pods, can live in both worlds; and are in service to the much larger evolutionary transition of the interpenetration of dimensions / realms.  We breathe and sustain ourselves by moving in both (at least 2) worlds – on more than one track, we become / are the bridgers to the future and the restorers in collaboration with the planetary Soul Being we call Earth.  We are the first stages in the manifestation of the soul of humanity integrating into and partnering with the greater Earth Soul.  Only now do we begin to sense our and her role in the greater Kosmos as we together glide through our vast and endless One Soul journey – another layer of holon scaling ever larger into infinity, into the Eternal Now.

As Marko writes, “The child of perfection and the child of human fate are bound to each other interactively, so that together they take on the form of a pomegranate (many seeds of potential, fruitfulness – my addition).”  He continues, “Does this mean that the confusing separation of the human ‘I’ from the perfection of its own spiritual soul essence is in the process of resolution?  That would also lift the danger to which modern human beings regularly fall victim, of being led astray by their one separated ‘I’, the so-called Ego.  The meaning of this aspect of the message is that the Ego will be integrated into the cosmic Wholeness through its renewed interaction with the individual’s spiritual soul.  Will this be the gift that the dancing Goddess brings to humanity?”

Art by Lisa Batshema

This interpenetration of soul and ego (or personality) self has been part of my spiritual journey for some time – to truly live and embody a soul infused life.  Knowing that personality continually reasserts itself, and noticing that, working with that.  And also learning how personality, as the unique way we each show up in the world, can be the gift of this incarnated human in service of soul purpose.  As I become ever more whole, fully present and alive, I become the human tool of soul manifestation here on and with Earth.  And I sense that our planet has been awaiting this so we can partner with her (and her cosmic family).  I now see many who are aligning personality with soul in service of the call they hear.  And we are finding each other.

My more recent exploration into the collective feminine as embodied and experienced in Women Moving the Edge has certainly activated this integration of soul/personality on an even more expansive level in me.  From this place I am continually integrating on many levels, committed to a life of service.

The exploration now takes on a larger perspective – the integration / interpenetration of collective soul and ego.  We must come together to continually inquire and sense into this larger multi-layered Soul Self.  How is evolution moving through us (and all that collective is)?  In our circles and gatherings we are beginning to build this more expansive capacity.  Only taking our first steps it seems; and yet trusting our knowing, we are present there.

Marko Pogacnik’s Gaia’s Quantum Leap has been my gentle and frequent companion book over the past few months.  Marko shares a compilation of profound dream images that open perspective and multi-interpretative possibility in the greater context of Earth’s transition within her multi-dimensional cosmic presence and home.  And I am often taken with what some of these dream images might be calling forth in us as humans in the greater community of LIFE on this planet.

Dream 41:  Return of the Goddess pp. 130-134

Illusion of 2 full moons

Three streams of energetic teachings call to me in Marko’s interpretation of this dream. I am not including all the dream imagery here – more a kind of taking note of wisdom that flows along with me and others in the stream of exploring the feminine as She is coming to the fore now.  The first dream interpretation is included here.

The coming together of the masculine and feminine, God & Goddess:

Marko writes, “The dance of the goddess is identical to the dance of the life force through which the fabric of creation is continually enlivened. The recurring reversals in the direction of the dance also remind us of the life-giving motions of the vital forces that are regularly polarized following the Yin/Yang principle. … images convey various messages that establish the feminine point of view of the divine in today’s era of cosmic change. They point to complete innovations of which we humans have scarcely any inkling.”

“They (these images) affirm the end of the separation between the principles of God and Goddess.  We are approaching an era in which the divine feminine includes her masculine complement.  But there will be no new division of “world rule” between God and Goddess.  As present in the dream image, there will be a mutual interpenetration of both principles that enables the Goddess simultaneously to be God – which will also be true in reverse.”

As I read these words, this integration /interpenetration of masculine and feminine dropped into me at a deeper level than previously.  Interpenetration moves in us as humans, to ground and be embodied in those that can hold this; AND at the same time we are a reflection of what is moving on many levels. Has this been coming all along as archetypal evolution unfolds in this dimension? It is hard to imagine what this might mean in the Future, how this will become embodied.  Yet it seems totally right.

Fiery Cosmic Interpenetration

I also wonder how we are to hold the masculine and feminine so that this interpenetration begins to reveal itself – not only as the best of each manifesting as one, but also a whole new way of being that we have not yet imagined.

Can we hold the fire?

From the circle we were invited to choose a letter and, each in our own way, to sense more deeply into this letter.  The one I had, TAV, can be found here.  I noticed that I could have moved into this with any letter and that they were really each part of a whole, as if they were dancing together.

One of my current practices is to sense the subtle through my back, especially the heart.  I am so unaccustomed to moving through my back that the logical mind cannot interfere. And I sometimes move backward or engage in movement of some kind.  This evening I spent my time this way and could have continued – but realized it was time to see what was present.  These words are what came onto the page, especially inspired by TAV, the letter I held.

Letters of Vibration

Symbols in vibrational relationship,

Moving in and between,

Connecting, enclosing, circling one another.

Coming here through the subtle realms,

Taking form in color and sound,

Calling in our creative human collaboration

To sense beyond time, space, and place.

To open the heart to the inter-dimensional

Heartbeat of all of Life.

To embody the sacred

In the freedom from our own imposed bondage,

Riding the wave into the wholeness emerging

From the fires of transformation.

With fierce gentleness

Sing with joy and celebration.

Be radiant contradiction

Integrating the many worlds.

See all the letters at www.shemaproductions.com

Following 3 women’s circles preceding the Mini Women Moving the Edge in June 2011, I felt an urge to write about my own place and growth in this process. I am ever more embodied and finding true ground in every way.  All as the subtle is ever more present.  So I ask – how are these circles moving in me?   What is evolving in me?  And taking another step back, how are we hosting with the subtle worlds?  (This latter question will call in more writing)

Morning shadows light the path

The following is from my morning journal on June 11, 2011.  My writing, my sensing happens very slowly, almost like sensing into each word – and sometimes there are no words.  I invite you to read, to absorb, and to take in from that very slowed down place of presence in you.  And even to see and sense beyond the words.

My sense is of being an instrument of the future unfolding, of playing my notes/chords to call in harmonic synchronization.  Everything becomes less and less personal, slowly taking one step at a time.  Moving into the impersonal, the fleetingly impermanent, the seemingly impermeable; and yet as each new horizon appears, I permeate, and am permeated, interpenetrated.  As an embodied human presence born of and into an older system, the resonance of the new plays in me seeking the way along the frontiers of evolution.

As I co-host these circles, as I (and we) call humans into wholeness of presence, in some mysterious and subtle way, we recognize and find one another.  Through the melody of conversation, we begin to harmonize our song.  As we witness one another in radiance, as our embodied words (like tones) find union in synthesis, we glimpse the best in us.  We see the future potential of humans learning to co-imagine and co-create with the subtle; we experience this as a presence in our midst.

As I (and we) call circles, held in the sacred, other presences/beings are attracted and come to see and listen.  “Is it time for us now, they wonder.  Are these humans, in their inquiry, calling us to be here?  We have hoped, waited patiently for this.  Let us make our presence known.”  (And subtly, gently they do)

As a human, now one of many, hosting in varying contexts, opening sacred space in circle, this goes far beyond the personal.  My experience is that evolution is freeing itself in and through me.  As personality becomes the servant to soul, to planetary and cosmic impulse and intention, the impersonal becomes the outward manifestation of the personal.  Convergence into oneness – as evolution, seeking ground in this realm, finds its freedom and unique balance in and through me.

Clarity in the context of haze

These circles are witness.  They mirror this potential in me and each woman present.  Something greater than we is moving in our presence.  It is soft, often wisp and elusive, and yet very solid (aligned) and alive.  Fierce gentleness, gentle fierceness is finding its way. We are not always sure why, but know we must be here.  We are here!  NOW!

Later as I was going back to some readings on geomancy, I began to understand something more about this embodied experience of the subtle.  I see that sensing into the subtle, sensing each word as it comes, I begin to feel the timeless space of fullness and resonance vibrating in me, in these very delicate slowed down moments.  I am challenged and yet called to trust that my experience is one beyond this time and space dimension, or at least a taste of it. We, as humans, are learning to move into the multi-dimensional; beyond, and yet just beside, the space/time home we now know as life here on Earth.

In these circles we open a space for this future potential.  We have an embodied experience outside of time and space (place), and yet we are all very present here.  It is holding this contradiction that opens the new frontier – to collaborate and participate with the subtle – to reach new clarity in right timing and right place to generate the new.   

I note – the question for the Mini Women Moving the Edge on June 21, 22 is present with me here –

How do we learn more about the embodied experience of the subtle – to reach (collective) clarity in right timing and right place in generating a new way of being?

Reflective Harvesting from our Women’s Circle June 8, 2011

(What I write here is coming out of the third circle – a series of 3 as seeding the Mini Women Moving the Edge June 21, 22 that I will co-host with Ria Baeck and Lisa Abby.)

How might our embodied experience of the subtle help us reach new clarity?

Six women in circle settled easily into the deep space of the subtle.  Even as we brought our voices present to check in, we had already dropped in – as the first woman stretched to find words, to express her recent experience into unexpected mystery.

From the essence of walking meditation to another’s sense of becoming the embodied pendulum, a rich evening unfolded. As I sense back now into that sacred time, I recall a theme of learning and seeking integration, the bringing together of two worlds (or is it more than two?) To embody and to live the capacity to be in stillness and also to act and do from that place.  The elusive veil of proximity invites us to listen and speak, to cultivate inner as well as outer.  To be and do from wholeness.

It seems there is a kind of peripheral vision (like the half closed eyes in walking meditation, seeing and yet a bit out of focus), a sense of being part of; and yet the view is passing slowly by, giving a sense of impermanence.  Are we glimpsing the beauty beyond the veil?  Are these still elusive kinds of sensings drawing us toward new clarity? 

My reflection of how embodiment wove into expression brings a couple of instances to me now.   To become the pendulum, like a tuning fork, to sense the energy in one’s own being and in the ‘field’ – to invite the body’s wisdom into our wholeness of knowing.  Like an instrument we fine tune, we can sense the timing to speak in a meeting, or when to be silent.  For me this is an exquisite level of sensitivity, of the sensual elegance of the embodied experience that we are only beginning to cultivate.

Also present in our conversation – the trauma of the feminine.  The circles of witches, women’s voices silenced.  We are in the process of healing our ancient wounding, of renewing, of giving new life to our subtle senses as humans, as embodied masculine and feminine beings.

One woman reminded our circle of the wisdom of the heart, its power far beyond the brain.  Let us learn to think with the heart mind.

To be witnessed, a gift for each as she expressed her embodied experience of the subtle, as we each opened and revealed what we often keep inside.  To witness and be witnessed.  And in this space, new clarity is revealed.  As we hold sacred the circle, the circle holds us.  My sense is we are not only witnessing one another but something larger, a kind of emergent collective presence that takes form as we, in presence, call her in.  She, they, are waiting to gather, to co-create with us.

I have been learning, experimenting, silencing into new ways of sensing, inspired by the writings and exercises of Marko Pogacnik in Sacred Geography and Gaia’s Quantum Leap. What I will capture here really only serves as wispy glimpses into this sensing experience beginning to live in me.   The gateway seems to be opening the heart center as a multi-directional portal – and especially cultivating and following the unknown, the unhabitual path moving out from the back – sensing into the deep and vast unknown.

April 22, 2011 – What is the future that is manifesting, or the potential that is in me, in us, here, now?  How is this showing up?  (my impulse was to look out about 500 years)

I see pods of human and collective creativity, of all beings, now more visible to us and working intentionally, all of us together.  Circles, morphing, moving effortlessly, interpenetrating realms and functions as we gracefully and effortlessly move in a life of wholeness, of co-creation.  The pods seem like large bubbles of light bouncing on the land, connected to energy places on the Earth where the new collaborative wholeness of Earth civilization is taking form.

Outside the bubble of light there are still many areas of devastation, and suffering, death, or humans barely surviving.  The old ways are dying, the new is manifesting in the midst of the compost heap of the old.  The humans still living the old way do not see these lighted bubbles, these places and pods of joyous collective aliveness.  We see them (from the bubble) around, they do not see us as they still do not perceive beyond the veil.

There are those of us who are Bridgers, the connectors, and we are teams of humans and invisible beings on the outside.  We pierce the veil to re-enter the dying space-time continuum, to work with and offer possibility to the young especially, who are curious, open, and wanting to transform.  They are open to new learning.  We, the Bridger Teams, work in many ways – in education and schools, health care, business, spiritual centers and many places  -anywhere where humans might be who are curious and who know there is something more.  (Later I had the sense that we may actually take incarnated form or not – as needed)  The humans hear the call and very gradually they begin to learn / sense / see the subtle, the loving whole connection of all of life and how our greater human role is to use our intelligence and soul callings to be in connection with the planetary and cosmic cycles, the evolutionary tensions and intentions.  From the smallest particle and being to the brightest star.

What if this vision of the future 500 years from now is here now?  What if we are the ones living in the old way in the midst of a chaotic and dying way of life on this planet?   What if some of us are the Bridgers, we just don’t know it when we are on this side of the veil.  Maybe we travel through to another realm at night, or out of time?  We learn more there (or renew in some way) so we can return and apply it here.  Is this the interpenetration happening on multiple levels now?  I find this hard to conceive and describe from this side of the veil. And yet I have a sense it is all here NOW.

Into the Unknown Sea

Is this why the right side of the U is a slippery slope?  Our current context even as to who we are (the collective WE) is too limited.  The journey has until now not fully included the multiplicity of presences (of kosmic proportions) that are the pre-requisite in the next evolutionary unfolding. 

As we humans begin to tap into our sensing apparatus, long dormant, we must actively invite the others, this larger context, to mentor our learning, fine tuning our communication, helping to activate capacities barely operational as yet.  Through in-the-moment accessing of source, in moment-to-moment emergence, this collective Being we become begins to express on this plane of matter, through the larger WE. A wholeness of Presence in the collapse of space time opens a glimmer of the mirage on the silver glistening and shadowy sea of the vast unknown.  It is as if we drop our fishing lines together, there at the edge. We wait, listen, sense, and together we experience a larger NOW, eternal and yet fleeting, an emergent way of knowing, of inviting the wholeness of potential to be present in our midst.

Night Sea Sky - meeting in the Unknown

The journey from here is uncharted.   Prototyping and rapid action seem to be the ‘great white’ we humans have been chasing, an illusion we have been trying to harpoon for eons.  Just as this great whale of potential in the vast unknown sea alludes and escapes us, will not be tamed, must be ever wild; we are continually called to step back, to connect with other entities who are in resonance, to reconnect to Source, to the natural rhythms of life.  We humans are to cultivate authenticity and the slow subtleness of presence, to gently recast our line (maybe more like a net now as we interweave whole communities of realms and threads), re-charting and remapping and navigating anew in each moment of lived experience the denser layers of matter.  As this collective We, we are recontextualizing up the U, welcoming and penetrating the disturbance and uncertainty that are shielding and resisting submission – the old ways of escaping and protecting that have heretofore not opened to receive.  Through these layers of consciousness – the more evolved are gently and lovingly holding presence for the resistance, honoring what once worked, crafting new connections in the invisible life matrix – shifting and lifting the veil. And when resistance begins to lessen, begins to soften, even becomes a field of love that holds receptivity and collaboration; the subtle miniscule movements up the U, always informed from source, iterative and delicate, can begin to co-manifest through this vast community into form.  In a continual rebirthing the future begins to find ground, to activate, and repattern Life at a cellular and universal level. After many movements in this infinite dance, multi-dimensional levels of being gracefully explode and shape continuous bursts of transformational radiance.  New substance is born.

Who are the ones called now to chart these unknown waters?  To embody the Collective We – the co-creative community of Beings stewarding and experimenting together in each moment, beyond the barriers of space and time?  Who holds the patience and presence of unrelenting intention and purpose in collaboration with the planetary consciousness on our voyage into the kosmic realms?  Who are WE?

Presencing is Reciprocal

As I become present, as I slow into simply being – with self, with other(s), with life – in the space of inner stillness, the within and the in-between, something more is born.  I begin to sense the mutuality in presencing as life is present to me.  Maybe this potential of reciprocity is always there, as if waiting to be given substance by my (our) attention.  Is this reciprocal presencing of life to itself, the potential birthing ground of how we humans can co-create?  At some level we may not yet fully grasp – is this how all creation takes place?

While in Egypt earlier this year, we gathered in circle to collectively speak of our experience in the Great Pyramid.  One spoke of a substance imbued with conscious reciprocal choice, a kind of luminous, participative, telepathic plasma (my paraphrasing) that we are learning to direct with very refined discrimination.  It seems to me this substance, an invisible and alive thickness in the air, may be brought into being as we fully presence in mutual relationship – to and with one another, to the potential we hold, to the collective being in our midst.  And as we co-presence in each moment to all life, from the smallest life form to our evolving planetary home and her cosmic path, we are seen and held.   A kind of co-creative oneness.

I recall recently returning to Rockport, where I lived for 9 years, to walk the Atlantic Old Garden Path that called to me most mornings of those years.   There is a special light that holds that place so familiar, that holds me.  As I became present once again to this light and land, path, seascape, rocks, and the sea herself – vastness meeting the sky, I felt the presence of the place.  It was as if she saw me, was present there with me.  The place in all her alive beauty seemed to say, “we know you, welcome back here, stay awhile”.   In that simple experience I felt the mutuality of my humanity with the vitality of nature and her still silence, holding me, presencing to herself with me.

This reciprocity seems to be the alive substance of oneness, waiting to be brought into being by our attention.  There is not a complete alchemy of substance into a final form, but continuous reciprocal creation of something that was not quite there before. It appears that human attention, human attentive presence, sparks something more into being.  I (we) sense it. We can almost touch it. It holds a very attractive vibrancy and yet delicate resonance.  These new layers of reciprocity of relationship on many levels, of seeing and being seen; they call me to be in this practice of being present in each moment.  To be in reciprocity with self and presence itself.  What is there?  What have I not been present to before now?  And how is this when we become present together – to the WE, to place, to nature, to life, to the vast universe of possibility?

There is something more here that does not yet have substance or words.  Presencing reciprocity beckons.